Well.. My heart could explode with all the love I have in it right now.. For my Beautiful Daughter!!!
On the 26th of May 2011 at 3.53 pm Elizabeth Mei Yu Hope came into the world with an AMAZING set of lungs!!!!
It really was an overwhelming day! I did not sleep very well at all the night before and I woke very early to have breakfast and Tyson woke early so we spent some time together just me and him while drew caught up on sleep before we went to the hospital! The whole morning I was full of nerves, when we finally left for the hospital I was just panicking at the thought of getting to the hospital late and being sent away! Well we made it on time and after waiting for what seemed like forever we were put in the room that I would be staying in!
We found out that I was going to be 2nd on the waiting list for c sections and that we just had to chill out to then! So I put on my lovely gown and had some blood tests done and then Drew and I spent those hours playing uno! At 3pm they came in and were ready to take us down! This is when my heart started racing! I really was so scared, going down on the lift and then we got into the room where they get everything ready before the surgical room it was all very overwhelming!! The whole team were really nice and made me feel very calm and at peace..
They took 5 tries to get a bung in my arm!! Finally got one in and I then had to sit up and have the spinal placed in my back! This was probably the scariest thing that I had to have done at that point.. I had to bend over a pillow and stick my back out so they could inject it in! The most painful part was when they put the local in to numb the area, after that I just felt alot of pressure in my back as they put the spinal in.. Once the spinal went in my legs went all warm and funy and then became a dead weight with pins and needles!
After that we were then taken into the surgical room where they moved me onto the operating bed, they then covered the front of me with a sheet so drew and I couldnt see anything scary, They kept testing my legs and stuff to see how if I felt anything eventually I felt nothing at all..
and then they began! I think the worst part of this WHOLE surgery was the fact that I felt all the pulling and moving and the things they used. it really made me feel a bit panicked and scared as I was waiting for it to start hurting but it didnt! But it was just really scary! I felt very sick through out the surgery and also cold, they gave me medication for both of these things so it wasnt so bad.
I remember them saying "your going to feel alot of pressure as we get the baby out now." I was so excited to think this is IT.. I heard a little baby noise and then once they got her out completely she started screaming! O my gosh! it was so amazing to hear her cry, I cried my eyes out it was just such an overhwhelming moment! I was in so much shock that my baby girl is here I didnt know how to feel!! It was so amazing..
I was still a bit freaked out due to everything I could feel, so I was working through those feelings also! After she was cleaned up she was brought over to me and I got to have a cuddle, it was hard to hold her due to how i was lying/feeling ect! But it was amazing just to have her close, her skin was so soft and she was so warm.. She felt like peice of heaven!
Drew held elizabeth as they finished stiching me up, and they then had to go after a while as the midwife had to go back upto the maternity ward, but they promised me that elizabeth would not be weighed or dressed or anything until I was up there so I got to be apart of the moment and I got to have skin to skin with her..
I was in recovery for about 40 min as they did there checks and then eventually we got to go back up! I got to have skin to skin and breastfeed her, It was really special, I didnt feel very well but that was just such an amazing thing to be able to do! It meant everything to me! Then she was weighed..7 pound 5 oz!! We were shocked as we thought she was going to be smaller then that! But she came out a perfect weight!
So I guess for a birth story this is it! This time i have been able to remember everything really well..
Elizabeth is amazing.. I am so in love with her! she is just a really good girl! and even when she is awake and crying Its all worth it!
Coming home has been great, we are all doing really well! Breastfeeding is a battle that I am struggling with at the moment, I have started needing to use nipple sheilds but that is better then not feeding her breast milk at all, so I am trying not to beat myself up about needing to use nipple sheilds.. its been a very emotional few days in regards to feeding because its SO important to me to get it right.. Its such a special time feeding her, and i love it i really do.. the pain is just so intense that i really struggle. But Im getting there, God has blessed me with friends who have great advice and are encouraging me, I would be so lost without there help.
So now my new chapter starts.. and Im so excited.. I feel fantastic..